Carrie Alana

I will be turning 20...


20 is not a big deal...


WAIT! I will not longer be a teenager! Nooooo! This means I have to start growing up right?



I guess I better get it out of my system.



Or maybe not.

I love my friends. I woke up this morning to a forward text message from my best friend of a girl who's name is Emily ann. She 13, and was murdered to death. The picture was of a girl with no eyes, and blood around her mouth with the halloween song playing in the background. The message continued, the blood around my mouth will be yours if you don't resend this to 10 of yours friends. This is not a joke! A guy named Joe thought it was, until I came and skinned him. No send backs.

So I sent it to 10 of my friends, I thought hey why not, and who would either get a kick out of this, or be scared shit less. I received the following messages in return so far.

Katlin - LMAO. Happy one year anniversary to en pointe to you too! Jeez. (en pointe is where we work)

Celina - Wowww what a great message to wake up to! Hahh

Mitch - O Carrie i hate you.

Kristy - YOU'RE SO SCARY



Can you guess who hates scary movies, and who just got a kick out of it? The rest of the morning was spent me laughing my guts out.

Today Bettina and I just wanted a day to relax. So we took her dog, Sadie, went on a drive and took a blanket, towels, and a basket of food. We drove for about an half hour until we found this cute little river/park. So we had our picnic and let Sadie do her thing. By the end of today we were all worn out and relaxed.


The view


Bettina and Sadie


Sadie having fun


The out come


Us, tired and relaxed.

Let's see. I just helped move my best friend into Detroit. She's staying for a month, then her and I are moving in together. Her place isn't bad, but I'd like it that she didn't live alone... and in Detroit. Our place is going to be in a much safer area.

I also just got my hair cut and colored. I'm really excited about it, it's black and red. Pictures will come soon.

I'm loving my new job, and my boss also says I'm getting a raise soon. That is exciting.

So all and all, my life is going good.

How about yours?

I went to ADCFA which is a dance workshop three hours away from my home, with my fellow college class mates. I drove with them there, and stayed for three days, danced for 8 hours straight every day, getting five hours of sleep every night, and live in a hotel out of a cooler filled with fruit, veggies, and string cheese.

Last night I had to leave early from ACDFA because my grandmother fell and broke her wrist and pelvic. Also because my friend who goes by Music Is love on the internet had bought me a ticket to the Taste Of Chaos tour, and can't find any one else to go with her. My mother is leaving today to stay with my grandmother for a while, and I can not go because of school on Monday (she lives nine hours away from us). I will be calling my mother every day to see how things are going. No madder what.

So, I took a train to get home. It was suppost to leave at 9:30 and I would get home around 1:00. That didn't happen, it was late and came at 10:45, and I finally got home at 3:30 a.m.

Now for something happy.

In my theater class I have been playing married woman, who is pregent and or a sex addict, now this time I get to play a female "dog" who really is just a homeless, apparently sexy, smooth tounge talking woman. I'm really excited about this because it's a challenge, but a goofy one instead of a serious one.

Alright, I'm off to go get ready for TOC 2008. Stay tuned for a video of Music Is Love and me going there.

Have you every traveled any where in a train? How did it go and where did you go?

Are you going to Taste Of Chaos? If so where, and who do you want to see?

Ps. Sorry for the miss spelling i'm lazy and too tried to check. I am running on three hours of sleep plus two Monster Moca energy drinks, and two cups of homemade coffee ( which are not working). I have a feeling i'm going to die on this tour. Stayed tuned. Eeek!

Today my friend Kristy surprised me by taking me to get my nails done. I have come to the conclusion that getting a manicure is a wonderful thing. I wanted to get a pedicure but, I need my feet to stay the same for my dancing. Anyways, if you ever have the chance, go and get a manicure.

getting my nails did. (well letting them dry)

 

So this weekend is going to be a blast. I'm going out for sushi, going clubbing, then to a party.

What are your plans?

So help me out please. Give me some bands that are fun to listen to, something poppy, alternative, rock, indie, something scene that I can jump around and dance too. if you get what I'm saying. Like for example, hot hot heat, or buzzcocks. something cute and girly but hardcore and scene at the same time. send me some band names please.

These are my thoughts, and I'm only putting down the stuff that most people/fans want to know. So let the writing begin.


When MSI came on everything seemed cool, Lyn-Z was putting on an awesome show doing jumps and spins and her back bend. Then during the third song Gerard came and watched her singing along to every song. She also made sure that he could see her and she turned her head smiled and semi waved at him a lot. I have no problem with her any more because she seems very nice, caring and cute from her stage presents and smile, and trust me I have a very good judge of character by just looking/being close to a person in real life, I don’t know how but I can sense if their good or not if that makes sense to you. After their show Gerard and Lyn-Z went off together after the band. She also wore the same wrist band as Gerard does during his show, and also had don’t be shy written on her arm. I’m still very very very jealous of her because I really do adore Gerard and always will no madder how upset I am with him.
Gerard is in the corner its hard to tell it's him but trust me, its him. Photo taken by me on 8/22/07


photo taken by me 8/22/07


Lyn-Z likes to be part of the crowd. photo taken by me 8/22/07

During the MCR show Frank went up to Gerard to give him a kiss or hug or something like that and Gerard flipped out! He flipped Frank over and then shoved him to the grounded making Frank slide half way across the stage. Then Gerard threw a microphone stand and kicked a light over but threw some other things to let out his anger. He also had the words kill something on his neck. It just seems to me that Gerard is becoming what he said he wouldn’t. He’s becoming a rock star and letting the fame get to him. He never talked about his girlfriend and he never showed any sign of having one, but now he does. He never hurt a band mate physically before and now he is. Oh and he never destroyed a set or showed how angry/unhappy he was and now he is. I don’t like how he is changing. He’s becoming very conceded about him self. I think he just needs to grow up and start acting 30 and not a famous person who thinks their 22 before he starts to lose what he really loves; his friends, family, band mates, and fans.
thats on close I was. Photo taken by me 8/22/07

After the show (mcr’s we left during Linkin park) I waited not even a half hour before Frank came out and I noticed right away that he had a scrap right above his right eye which was probably caused by Gerard when he shoved him onstage. Him and I talked for 3 min. then I got his autograph and a hug and went to wait for my friend Liz while she got her hug. Then we went back up to Frank to talk about some MCRmy stuff and that lasted for a good 10 mins.. Then Frank said his good bye staring at me again which totally made me smile. Lol. He then said he was going to go chill with his dog and he walked off. While we were waiting we saw Lyn-Z walk by and go onto the MCR bus and stay on there for about 15 min. When she was leaving I yelled Hi Lyn-Z she waved and yelled Hi back very nicely and continued to walk. (she could have been rude and not said a word or to just say something like yeah yeah whatever). 10 min. Later Ray came out and I got an autograph from him, but he said he was sick so we couldn’t get any hugs, which was okay because I could hear that he was sick. So that’s pretty much it. I met Frank again for the third time this year and he totally recognized me (I swear I could tell by the way he was looking at me… a lot Lol sorry teenie moment) and I met Ray, along with Kitty and Jimmy from MSI, I got both of their autographs and pictures. It was an amazing show and the fans where awesome too. I just didn’t like how Gerard was acting. At all. I will always love him, but right now I’m just a little disappointed with him. Oh and jealous of Lyn-Z big time.
My ticket signed by Frank Iero and Ray Toro

I wrote this right after the show so sorry if it seems rude, I was just really upset.

If you could have/borrow one of Gerard's, Mikey's, Ray's, Frank's, and Bob's things what would you take/borrow? and why

I would borrow Gerard's ipod because that way I can try to get into his head and understand what he thinks and feels and why. Since he grew up to music and since music is such a huge impact for him I just want to try to experience that. Also he has such an awesome music selection I want to know every since song/band he listens to. I want to feel what he feels every day.

Mikey, an old journal because he has been through a lot, and I can kinda relate to half of the things that hes been through. Also it might help me to hear and read what went through his mind, and how it helped.

Ray, one of his old guitar books or scribbles of his note taking that he probably used when he was playing. that way I could maybe try to teach myself, but at the same time he is kinda helping me.

Frank, his laugh, because it always seems to cheer me and every one who hears it up. I've always wanted to bebale to make people smile/laugh and with his sense of humor and laugh, I could do it. So I would want his ablilty to do that. Make people happy.

Bob, a day with him, so he can teach me how to stick up for myself and to be tuff. Because I'm waaay to sensitive and I just take more then half of the crap I get/hear from people, so I want to beable to stick up for myself, and to not get to worked up over the stupid shit.

try to come up with your own idea, if what I said is what you really wanted then by all mean ask for it and give me more of why you want it, but try to come up with your own ideas.